JR.
When I read of Junior Seau’s death by apparent suicide I was deeply saddened. I am not going to say that Junior Seau and I were friends, or even acquaintances. His clothing company that he was starting up in the mid 90’s, SAY OW sponsored the 96 Commotion by the Ocean. A race REM put on for 10 years at the infamous Carlsbad Raceway. My conversations with him were mainly through the guy he had running the clothing company. All Junior requested were some passes to the event for some of his family members and possibly himself and a dozen 2XL event shirts that he could work out in. That was the time in his life that he was in his prime, his football, his foundation, his businesses, all of the great charitable work he was doing in San Diego North County. We were honored to have him as a sponsor, we were honored that he even knew about our motocross race. From what I knew of him he was a very upbeat, positive, and giving human being. His death is a tragedy not only for his family, but his legions of fans. His death may very well be linked to the many head impacts he suffered through in his career not only in the NFL, but college, high school and even in youth football. Motocross racers as well can suffer these same debilitating injuries. How many pro and amateur motocross racers have taken their own lives? Too many. No one really understands the link between concussions, even minor head trauma and the risk of suicide later on.
There are a few in this world who have never been depressed, never hurt so bad physically or mentally that ending the pain has never at least crossed their mind. Ending your life by an individual act of personal violence, or alcohol, or illegal drugs, or prescription drugs, or suicide by motor vehicle, or suicide by threatening a cop is a means to an end that never resolves the problem it just ends your life on this earth. In every case that I can think of outside influences, contributed to their deaths. A person in his right mind does not end his life. Not to say either way that they were sane, or mentally ill but the possibility is there in every case that some outside factor contributed to their decision to end their lives.
The first suicide that I remember was a much loved teacher in junior high school. I personally didn’t have any classes with him, but I remember him as a very popular young teacher, who looked a lot like Jim Morrison of the Doors. I never learned why he took his own life or the method, only that his death shook up a campus of young people who all asked themselves, why. It was the first exposure that most of us had with suicide.
Over the years I have known too many who have taken their own lives. People of great religious faith, people with seemingly everything to live for. Some of whom felt they had nothing to live for. Some were fathers, some sons, some daughters, some mothers; all were humans whom felt life was not necessary for them any longer. The one thing in common in each of their suicides was the overwhelming fact that not one person that they left behind ever said, “I’m glad he or she is gone”. Every one of them was and is missed to this day. The ones left behind grieve not only for the act, but the guilt for what they might have done to stop it, why didn’t they see this coming, and how could the person lost not know how much they were needed, loved, and cherished.
I have never known someone who was in so much pain from disease, so ill or incapacitated that they took their own life. But, I have known people who felt their lives were not worth another day on this earth and chose to end their lives despite having loved ones who genuinely cared about them. My friend Marty, who loved his young son as much as any father could have, but was in chronic pain from past injuries-and possibly hooked on pain pills. All it took was an argument that most of us would have gotten over, I'm convinced the pain meds pulled the trigger. My step brother, whom I barely knew, took his life with a handgun, after a night of heavy drinking.
I could go on, but it is very painful to think of the loss of these wonderful people who put themselves into situations that for some reason they could not back out of. There are so many cynics who find it very easy to say things like “they are just weak people, they are selfish, and how dare they choose when to end their lives”. Depression is a very serious problem. I’m not a doctor, nor a psychologist, but I can tell you from my own experience that the people that I know that took their own lives were not weak or selfish people. They were people who at a time of need, felt that the lives they were living were not worth spending another day on this earth. What is important is trying to realize that the depression you suffer, the self-worthlessness that you feel is probably being brought on by something such as suffering too many concussions, or taking too many pain meds, or hormonal imbalances, or alcohol.
If you feel worthless, or depressed, if you are in pain, know that there are many others out there that feel the same way, you aren’t alone. But, you need to get help; even it is just talking to another human being that has suffered through the same dark thoughts. At the very least give this a try call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800 273 TALK (8255) Suicide hotline, 24/7 free and confidential nationwide network of crisis centers
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